World In My Eyes - Depeche Mode

Depeche Mode has to be my all time favorite bands. I loved them since I was a kid. It is still something me and my older two sisters bond over. The last time they came into town we all called each other and planned to see them. At another time I will tell you a story about that concert. Let's just say at the end of the night my husband said "You completely lost it". Feel free to refer to the 7 things about myself I listed a few days ago to get a little insight about how I feel about being trapped.

On with today's blog.

Depeche Mode was my first concert. It was actually supposed to be Erasure but my mom saw an MTV News update where they were dancing around the stage with tutus on and she freaked. My sister saw Erasure later on (after she left home) and said they weren't as good in concert but it was still fun. I was so happy that Depeche Mode ended up being my first concert!

Let me set up the story for you. I was 13 years old and completely in love with David Gahan - I even sent him a fan letter with my 7th grade picture. DORK! Anyways I even remember what I wore. I wore black shorts with a little black belt and a white rayon shirt with huge buttons (oh good lord)! That shirt quickly was replaced by the DM t-shirt I quickly purchased at the concert. I curled my hair and tried to look super cute at all times because you never know if Dave Gahan has eagle eyes and could see me all the way in the yellow section of Dodger Stadium.

Anyways this concert experience still makes me smile. Right before they were going to come on it started to rain and everyone started to scream louder for them. So right when the music for World In My Eyes starts a friggin' bolt of lighting streaks through the sky right behind the stage. Everyone in Dodger stadium went ape shit. I'm not joking. At 13 - this moment was the most exciting point of my life. I felt like crying, but I didn't because I am super cool. The rest of the evening I screamed my lungs out to every song and danced with my sisters. My sister Heather at one point leaned over to me and said "You know all the words to every song! I didn't know you like them this much! You are cracking me up!" I looked at her like "DUH! Of course I know all the words!" Then I immediately went back to snapping my fingers and singing my heart out to Dave Gahan!

Enjoy!

I also wanted to give a shout out to my girl Rhonda! She shared her morning music with me and I love it!! It's the Munchkin Land song from Wizard of Oz. We were chatting this morning and I said "Remember when you had to wait to see this movie on TV?" It was always a family event for us. I think they showed it around February every year (I could be wrong). But I remember one year my grandparents came down to watch it with us. We would make popcorn and get blankets and eagerly wait for it to start. I loved those days when you had to wait for movies - they made them so much special.

If you guys have morning music - please share!

Side note

Hi everyone! This is not my normal update but I have to tell you what I have been waiting for and STILL have to wait for! MAC has partnered up with Disney and will be coming out with a Villians Collection! Woo-hoo! The villians featured are Cruella De Vil, Evil Queen from Snow White, Maleficent, and Dr. Facilier (I haven't seen the movie with him though). This collection will be available this September and I will definitely be buying a few pieces in the collection! The names alone are amazing, "Sinister", "Strange Potion", "Bite of an Apple", "Dark Deed", "She Who Dares", "Briar Rose", etc. That Malificent mineralized eyeshadow duo is calling my name! And who has the best red lips ever - the villians! Can't wait to try this stuff out! Here are some pics!

The Dress - Blonde Redhead

Well sorry kids, I love this song but it is kind of depressing. I was obsessed with this band about a year ago and could NOT stop listening to them. I am very excited though because they are playing at the Music Box (aka Henry Fonda theatre) in November. Anyone wanna go with me?

My deepest fear has always been that once people get to know me they will not like me. It's something that I have had to face and deal with. Now if you don't like me I could care less! I think that is the good thing with getting older - you realize you don't have to put up with bull crap and find relationships you want to nurture and grow and others that can be thrown away in the trash. Sounds kind of harsh but true. My thirties have been a roller coaster but I have found that even though I can see things that I can improve about myself - I like who I am.

Anyways this song reminded me of my insecurities and how life, experience and the support of good friends (and a good man) can help you get over them.

Thoughts on the video?

Blog Award!

Hey everyone I was given a blog award! Woo-hoo! Thank you Danielle from 'So Here Is What You Missed' for giving me the Versatile Blogger Award! To my 8 followers - if you are looking for another funny and interesting blog - please check her out!

So here is the deal, once I get the award I have to do the following:

1. Thank the award giver.

2. Share seven things about myself.

3. Nominate new award winners and let them know.

Again, thank you Danielle for the award! I will take you out of for a cupcake sometime soon!

OK on to the seven things about me. Why do I find myself stumped? Hmm...ok here we go.

1. I LOVE football! I can't tell you how excited I am that football is almost here. Just to know that training camp is starting I get butterflies in my stomach. This is the kind of person I am at football games and sometimes watching the games in the comfort of my home. Sorry mom.

I lumped this into my love for football. My dream job = NFL/ESPN reporter. Come on, be honest, I would be SO much better than this chick! Of course I have to pick the worst picture ever. I actually really like her but I just want her job. :)

2. I have an obsession with make-up and skin care. My friend calls me a product junkie and she might be right, but there is a reason why people ask me when they are looking for a new mascara or foundation. I've tried almost all of them and I won't steer you wrong. No wasting your money with me baby! I've already wasted my money!

3. Tell me a good fart or poop story and I will be happy and laughing for days. Sorry it's the truth.

4. I still have my Bitty Beans and I will NEVER get rid of her. I think she was my first doll. She had a little opening on the back to show her butt- so cute! I had her packed away for a long time and when Jason and I moved I found her again and I realized something - her eyes are the ones I doodle all the time! For as long as I can remember when I am bored (school, work, conventions, etc) I draw eyes. I picked her up out of the box and I was like 'Oh my gosh it's your eyes I have been drawing all these years!' Weird huh. I love her.

5. If you trip and fall in front of me most likely I will want to laugh. I of course have learned that is really mean so I will wait until I know you are OK.

6. I am extremely claustrophobic so if you are ever trapped in an elevator with me you need to beware because I will most likely windmill punch everyone until I feel like I have enough room or until I pass out.

7. I used to HATE to be picked up as a kid! I was so tiny in school that other kids used to pick me up and run around with me. It made my blood boil. Funny thing is that when my family would go on trips and we would get back late I used to pretend that I was asleep so my dad would pick me up and put me in my bed. It was one of my favorite things. Nothing like a good daddy.

I pass this Versatile Award onto the following:

From Beneath the Butterfly Grove

Anything Fits A Naked Man

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Turn This Mutha Out - MC Hammer

Umm you don't want to know why I woke up with this song in my head. I think this came out when I was in sixth grade - I'm not sure, but me and my friends and school would practice MC Hammer dance moves on the quad during lunch. Are you slowly realizing I might be the coolest chick you know?

I Wanna Be Your Man - Zapp & Rogers

Oh yeah baby - this takes me back to my high school days. After leaning like a cholo at North side Santa Maria parties we would bring it on down and dance to jams like this. The guys at these parties weren't embarrassed to sing to you while dancing with you. I remember the first time we went to a North Side party, we were certainly not dressed appropriately and it was different than any party I have been to. I loved it though! I remember thinking I love that they are playing all this old music!

We lived initially on the South end of Santa Maria (or Orcutt/O town) and then ended up moving right outside of Santa Maria to a little place called Tanglewood (or the Wood). You would never think this little small agricultural town was so gangsta. Most of the parties we had gone to played all the new music like C&C Music Factory (oh yeah baby gonna make you sweat) and head banger hits of the day like Metallica and Nirvana. But if we were having parties my sister Tabi and I would always try to bring it back a bit and throw in some 80's hits and people would stand there staring at us while we and some of our good friends were the only ones dancing. So I appreciated going to parties where people loved old songs. That is how the North side parties were. They listened to all the songs my Aunt Mo used to listen to when we would go visit her and her friends.

My first slow song with a guy at a North side party was Always and Forever and he starting singing. At first I was like wow this guy really likes this song. Then I looked at him and he was staring at me singing the song! AHHH! I was not ready for that! This is the dancing I was used to - you barely talk to each other because you are embarrassed that you are that close to each other and if you make eye contact, you quickly look away. Ok so...it may have been my nerves but I was never really comfortable getting close because I felt like a nerd. Don't get me wrong I loved slow dancing because I was not allowed to date until I was 18 so any chance to touch boys I was all for it! But I have to be one of the most awkward people known to man if I like someone or if I think they like me. Ask my husband. To top off the weirdness during this dance his breathe was getting progressively worse because he kept trying to get his face closer to mine. I started to lean my head away as far as possible and looking for my sister Tabi to give her the "HELP" face. But Tabi - Ms. Comfortable in every situation was chatty Cathy was some other guy she was dancing with. Thanks. But bad breath and all I always had a blast.

This song also reminds me of one my favorite comedies - Pootie Tang. If you have ever seen the movie you are probably saying "That is the dumbest movie in the world". I don't know but I think it is funny. Especially the part with this song. I cant' find the clip of it on YouTube - but I will show a little trailer for Pootie Tang So dumb - but kind of genius?

This is the Day - The The

This song always reminds me of my sister Heather. My sister has always been a big influence on me growing up. She was my idol - everything she did, I did. If she was wearing her a hair a certain way I would do the same. I used to love when people would call me "Little Heather". She never thought I was annoying or irritating - she is such a good sissy. I swear to god our 8th grade spring pictures we look almost identical - even though it was 4 years apart we were wearing a similar shirt and hair style. Of course Heather looked more put together, I was always a little frazzled looking. Probably because I had just finished playing kick ball.

Like I said in a previous blog update she used to make us tapes of the music she was listening to. She was always thinking of us or my parents. She is our family organizer. If we are going on a trip we can sit back and relax because we know Heather will pretty much plan everything. I know she gets irritated at that sometimes but, honey you do it so well!

I remember the year after she got married she planned to do a video for my parents anniversary. We helped her get pictures together of my parents and us, although I don't really remember doing much. She planned it all out, putting the pictures in order and to what music. Danielle, do you understand now why you remind me so much of my sister! It was the best thing I have seen and heard. The music really made the video. The songs she used was:

- Maggie May - Rod Stewart

This is my parents song. The video showed pictures of them as kids and them together when they were dating - which was not very long. Horn dogs!

- Cherry Bomb - John Cougar Mellencamp (the Coug)

This part of the video is showing when they had Heather and moved out to the mid west when they were 19.

- We Are Family - Sister Sledge

Of course showing the three older girls - Heather, Tabi and finally ME!

- Young American - David Bowie

This song was dedicated to my younger brother and sister. They seriously have the cutest baby pictures! Jake looked like a doll! He was the only one of us that got my dad's big blue eyes. His baby girl Ava looks just like him - she will be a beautiful girl. Missy on the other hand had these big red lips as a kid and she was never in clothes. So her pictures consisted of maybe a diaper, her 'nene' (blanket) and her big red lips. Quick story about Missy's lips. She went to spend the day at my Grandma's house one time and my Grandma got mad at her because she thought she put lipstick on. My Grandma was rubbing the crap out of her lips to try and get the lipstick off and Missy was yelling "Grandma it's just my lips!" So funny!

- This is the Day - The The

My sister ended the video with this song with pictures of her wedding. James was now a new member of the family and I think for me watching this part of the video I felt our life was changing because all of us were getting older and we were going to start moving on with our lives and adding more people to our family. I remember thinking, "We are gonna need to add to this!" Now to think about then to now our family has gone through many many changes and it is still changing. Man, I think we need to do an updated family video! We can leave out the assholes along the way though.

The thing that has been constant is that we all still love each other. I was watching a show with a lady who has a bunch of brothers and sisters and she said "We fight a lot and we love a lot." I thought that was very true. My sister Heather said something very similar about us, she's a smart lady.

I leave you with this song to enjoy.